My pregnancy, well what I had of it.. was amazing. I didn’t suffer with sickness meaning I got to enjoy everyday! There wasn’t much to complain about at all it was a healthy low risk pregnancy.
I felt flutters quite early around 13/14 weeks which was an odd things to experience because I didn’t know what they were it was just like bubbles in my belly. Blue definitely was a music baby as the flutters were stronger while listening to music. I had my second scan at 15 weeks and this time baby was playing ball so they got the measurements and my estimated due date was April 10th 2018 , 5 days before daddy’s birthday! I was convinced they’d end up sharing a birthday.
The only strong symptoms I had was heartburn , boy oh boy it was bad. I was constantly taking gaviscon to ease it praying baby had lots of hair to make it worth it. When I hit 19 weeks pregnant I started to feel proper little kicks , like someone tapping on my belly from the inside! They weren’t very strong at this point put they were definitely there. Come 20 weeks I had my big scan to find out if baby is growing well and the gender.
At the scan they had to do multiple measurements and checks to make sure the growth of baby was how it should be. Blue was led in an awkward position so they couldn’t see everything they needed too which led to another type of scan. After all checks were done we wanted to find out the gender. Straightaway the lady said ” you’re having a little boy” this made me cry because I knew deep down from 12 weeks we were having a boy.
We announced the gender the same day and started to look for boys clothing etc , soon we had a full wardrobe of clothes for him. As he got stronger he became more of a night baby meaning 3/4 am hit and he’d be kicking away. I honestly cannot explain the feeling of your little baby kicking you.
As for the rest of the pregnancy I got to experience, 7 weeks and 4 days , it went by so so fast. I’m gutted we never experienced full term but maybe next time…
Now the blog posts start to get emotional and will show you exactly what we went through.
Such a big bump for such a tiny baby.
If you’re expecting or have had a baby then you know how anxious waiting for the first scan is. You’re too early to feel movements or hear a heartbeat so the not knowing if your tiny little baby is doing well makes you totally on edge. Our first scan was September 23rd 2017 , considering we found out were expecting on August 11th it felt like a lifetime until the scan.
The end of September was busy for us as we went on holiday 6 days after we first saw Blue. On the morning of the scan I was a nervous wreck , worrying about if the baby is well, having the screening test ,if baby is still alive etc etc . As a first time mum you never know what’s normal which adds to the anxiety, I mean that probably last until your child is 18.
For me having to have a full bladder was difficult because I used to be a terrible drinker but I managed to down enough water to make the scan visible. When we got to the hospital I saw a midwife who spoke about the screening test which is a blood test to see if baby has Down’s ,Edwards’ and Patau’s syndromes. Personally for us we chose not to have the screening test done because either way we would have continued with the pregnancy no matter what the outcome.
After seeing the midwife we had to wait to be called into the room where the scan takes place. For our first scan it was the two of us and my mum in the room to explain things to us of needed. Once on the bed the lady put the freezing cold jelly on my belly and started the scan, turns out we had a little acrobat at that stage. The tiny little foetus was doing a head stand which made getting measurements a challenge .
I was sent off to try wake baby and get him to change positions, which while you have a full bladder isn’t fun at all. After half and hour we went back into the scanning room and tried to measure again … No luck baby was still doing a headstand so a rough measurement of 12 weeks was made. We got some very clear pictures and went to wait in the waiting room.
Now measurements are important in pregnancy so we had to have an extra scan at 15 weeks which meant we only had to wait 3 weeks before seeing Blue again. Since this first scan I was convinced we were having a boy , no doubt about it. It’s the most amazing feeling in the world seeing your little baby for the first time , it’s emotional but in a good way. It’s one memory i will keep forever.
My advice to all expecting mums if you haven’t had your first scan is no matter how terrible the pictures are, get some! If you don’t then you will regret it .
It’s safe to say the day I found out I was pregnant came as a huge shock, Blue wasn’t planned and I had actually had a conversation with my partner about not having a baby until I was at least 25 just a week before I did the test . The shock of it hit us hard but when we sit and think about it all the signs were there….. let me rewind a bit.
At the end of July 2017 I started feeling ill which is quite unusual for me , I was constantly getting headaches, feeling nauseous, getting dizzy and just generally not feeling too great. I thought nothing of it and put it down to a cold or a bug etc. It lasted about two weeks and then I felt absolutely fine so again just shrugged it off.
Fast forward to August 9th 2017 I noticed my hair was starting to fall out. I have pretty thick hair that normally doesn’t fall out in big clumps… well the amount I was loosing was crazy , I ended up with a large bald patch . To me straight away I thought ” oh its probably stress alopecia” because I had been extremely stressed for the past few months. My sister is a hair dresser so I called her to come take a look at my hair .
Once my sister arrived she said it doesn’t look like alopecia to her but I should get a doctors appointment to get some answers. Then she asked the question which got me thinking ” is there any chance you could be pregnant?”. Impossible,I’m on the pill there’s no way I’m pregnant. Then I started thinking back, the dizziness ,the headaches ,the nausea ,the sore boobs… oh snap.. maybe I am?
Fast forward to the next morning when I’d bought a test. Now if you’ve ever done a test yourself you’ll know the 3 minuets seems like an age. So at about 10:30am I’ve woken up needing a wee, perfect I’ll do the test and prove I’m not pregnant. Waiting those 3 minutes was agonising. Ding ding ding we have a winner 2 Blue lines ping up like lights on a Christmas tree. I went into my mums room to show her and to make sure I’m not having line eyes, nope definitely positive .
Then it hit me , I’ve been taking my pill everyday , what if I’ve harmed the baby? So we got a doctors appointment straight away. He confirmed I’m pregnant with a test and then explained the hair loss. I was overdosed on hormones from being 7 weeks pregnant roughly and still taking my pill , but he didn’t think it would have done any harm. Fast forward a few more days and I had my first midwife appointment and a date for my scan, everything is getting real now!
I’ll continue the story on a new post about my scans!
The start of it all.
I am a brand new mummy who was faced with the most challenging journey with my first child at only 20 years old. Baby blue is my 3 month old son who entered the world far earlier than he should have.
This blog is to tell our story from the very beginning to now and beyond. Letting you in on the good, the bad, the devastating and the amazing steps in Blue’s life. Sometimes you’ll giggle at the posts and sometimes they’ll be hard reading but I promise you, you will want to read more.
Explaining our entire journey isn’t going to be easy but if I can help just a few mums or mums to be by writing this then I know I’ve done good. So sit back and relax but get read for a rollercoaster of reading.